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My Crooked Road
Chris Dingman
I
grew up in the New Hampshire countryside, in a little town. A thousand
people. Time was slow. Had about three friends. We rode bikes around the
village common, played football with their older brothers, or war. I spent a
lot of time in the woods. I wanted to see animals. They were magical to me.
A brook ran behind our house. I fished for trout or caught crawfish in the
summer and walked along it like a path in the winter. Shelves of ice on the
rocks, quiet. I drew pictures a lot. That was my thing. Dad played guitar,
piano and trombone. I plunked out some melodies I liked on the piano. Like
“The Entertainer” and “Maple Leaf Rag.” Mom had Beatles records. They made
me think if there is a God, He’s speaking through these guys. That music was
unbelievably bright and bursting. Never thought about doing what they did.
Middle School. New town. More people, new kids. Trying to be popular, trying
to fit in. Wear the right shoes. Played trumpet in the band mostly because
Dad wanted me to. Things go on like this through high school. Magic dies.
Typical.
College. Harvard to be exact. First time in the “big city.” Feel lost. But
something’s waking up inside. Take some philosophy, meet some interesting
kids. Join the Harvard Lampoon, a humor rag. I kinda fit there. Decide to be
a writer. Short stories.
Summer after junior year, I’m staying with my Mom in California where she
moved. I put on Dylan’s Freewheelin’ record. Comes on like a ghost—from some
other realm. Cuts right through everything. Also reading DH Lawrence &
Nietzsche. Instinct. I learn some chords on the guitar.
Graduation. Real world. “Poetry” starts coming into my head and I write it
down. Weird things that I don’t show to anyone, except once to Robert Bly.
He likes it, tells me to work at it. On the outside, I move to LA to write
comedy with a buddy & we get an agent. But I can’t take LA and move north.
Write a screenplay, option it to Warner Bros. Keep playing guitar on my own,
until eventually I write some songs. Melodies come to me, sometimes like
magic, sometimes when I work at it. Mostly it’s the lyrics that take time. I
want every word to matter.
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